Run Through the Snow, Pt. 2

YOU DON'T REALLY EVEN CARE
MUST BE A DOCTOR AFTER HOURS
SUCH UNGRATEFUL TEARS
GO USE THEM TO WATER YOUR FLOWERS

Christmas 2016
I got in a fight with my demons
They said I ain't appreciate the presents 
and family presence
I said i don't need it

I went up to Marian College
All alone
I walked through the snow

I wanted to cry
But I couldn't anymore
Tears never flow
Froze over
I must be Frozone 
Or my heart is frozen
Fam filling pools of love
I wouldn't even dip my toes in

Now it's 2022
And my heart is thawed out

And I promise it's not ain't cuz I moved to Cali
Where I never see a cloud 

All of this empathy
What's gotten into me
Feeling whatever you feel
Might be the death of me

I don't want another misdiagnosis
[Doctor: Psychopathy is a consolation of traits, but the most--]
Might be the death of me
I don't want another misdiagnosis
[Doctor 2: Schizoid personality disorder is characterized by--]
Might be the death of me
I don't want another misdiagnosis
(I don't want another one)
[Doctor 2: Depressive disorder with seasonal pattern...]
Might be the dea--

Psychology
Find out what's wrong with me
Don't get nobody involved
Jump into 10 different misdiagnoses
Like paintings in Peach's castle on my walls
Isolation is the only set in my playbook
My pops tried to find me doctor's at 12
I never even took a look
Romantic Therapist
I hide my feelings when I need to
I can lie to your face
Cause I know that the truth won't save you
(People don't change)
Situations do
Now I can see through the strife that clouded my vision
On the other side's a man with a mission
With 4 other wolves that stand on they business
Psychotic breaks don't scare
Tragedy for me is normalcy

Feeling whatever you feel
That shit will NOT be the death of me

I used feel the weight of them steel toe boots 
Walking through high school
Clear backpack that's torn at the straps
The bag heavy as my eyes looked

Winter breeze on my neck
I'm shivering
Running through crowds
I'm lightfooted
Track star running in the winter
None of his problems running with him

TRY TO RUN AWAY
ILL NEVER LEAVE YOU
(Please just leave me alo--)
HIDE BEHIND YOUR MASK
I'LL ALWAYS SEE THROUGH
(What do they already know about me?)
SKIP YOUR MEDS TODAY
AND I WILL EXPOSE YOU

Ain't no point in asking for forgiveness
Pray to my God or be my own witness?
Run through the snow and lose all my senses
Snow falling
I don't rock with the bullshit

(Run through the snow)
The snow take the heat out my skin
And black mittens
Headphones fall to the ground
I can't hear shit

(Run, run, run through the snow)
The wind got my vision all blurry
I cant see it
But you can see the pain in my eyes
I don't fear shit

(Run through the snow)

Alone
(I don't really care)
So cold
(I don't really care)
No fam
(I don't really care)
Just hope


I just gotta run
(Run, dart, sprint, SCREAM)
Through the snow